Amara Jivana
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Purport by His Divine Grace A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupada
Founder-Acarya of the International Society for Krsna Consciousness
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Amara jivana sada pape rata nahiko punyera lesa. This is a song sung by Bhaktivinoda Thakura in Vaisnava humbleness. A Vaisnava is always meek and humble. So he is describing the life of the people in general, taking himself to be one of them. The people in general are like the description given here. He says that my life is always engaged in sinful activities, and if you try to find out, you will not find even a trace of pious activities, only full of sinful activities. And I am always inclined to give trouble to other living entities. That is my business. I want to see that others are suffering, and I enjoy. Nija sukha lagi pape nahi dori. For my personal sense gratification, I do not care for any sinful activities. That means I accept any kind of sinful activities, if it is satisfactory to my senses. Doya hina swartha paro. I am not at all merciful, and only I see to my personal interest, para sukhi dukhi. As such, when others are suffering, I become very happy. I am always talking lies. Sada mithya mora. Even for ordinary things, I am accustomed to speak lies. Para dukha sukha karo. And if one is suffering, that is very pleasant to me. Asesa kamana, hrdi majhe mora. I have got lots of desires within my heart, and I am always angry and falsely prestigious, always puffed up with false pride. Mada matta sada visaye mohita. I am captivated in subject matters of sense gratification, and almost I am crazy, himsa garva vibhusana. My ornaments are enviousness, and false pride. Nidralasya hata sukharje birata. I am subdued or I am conquered by sleep and laziness. Sukharje birata. I am always adverse to pious activities. Akarje udhogi ami. I am very enthusiastic to perform impious activities. Akarje udhogi ami. Pratishtha lagiya sathya acarana. I always cheat others for my prestige. Lobho hata sada kame. I am conquered by greediness, and always lusty. E heno durjana saj jana varjita. So I am so fallen and I have no association of devotees. Aparadhi, offender, nirantara, always. Subha karja sunya, in my life, there is not a bit of auspicious activities, sadanartha manah, and my mind is always attracted by something mischievous. Nana duhke jara jara. Therefore, at the fag end of my life I am almost invalid by all such sufferings, vardhakye ekhona, upaya bihina, in my old age, I have no other alternative now, tate dina akincana. Therefore, by force, I am now become very humble and meek. Bhaktivinoda prabhura carane. Thus Bhaktivinoda Thakura is offering his statement of life’s activities at the lotus feet of the Supreme Lord.
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