Respected Swami Srila Prabhupada Ji
by Pranjal Joshi
Please accept my humble obeisance. All glories to Srila Prabhupada!
I know that I am not yet qualified to call myself your disciple but I am trying from my side to follow the path which you laid down for us. I was living in this material world which is full of suffering and ignorance, I had absolutely no idea of good or bad, right or wrong and there was extreme misery and distress I my life. It was in the year 2003 that I first came across the Bhagavad-gita As It Is which was given to me by my friend. I just read a few pages at that time of one more book which was about the story of a Brahmin that was the day when my spiritual journey started. I know that one cannot repay you back for what you have given to us, even if I serve you for millions of lives, but I am so unfortunate that I still have strong material attachments due to which I am unable to fully surrender to you. I sometimes feel very low because of this reason.
I am trying to focus on my sadhana as much as possible; chanting 16 rounds everyday, doing the morning and evening sadhana and trying to serve other Vaishnavas as per my capacity. I have a strong desire to preach the I movement all over the world by distributing your books and I cards etc. There are many ways to spread your movement. Whenever Krishna Consciousness movement has reached a jiva, I feel his life will be changed completely. If I had not taken association of my devotee friends, then I would have continued with my aimless journey. Whenever a devotee gives a lecture or I get a chance to honor prasadam or any other spiritual "ray of hope" I see, I move in that direction and try to get the mercy of Guru and Gauranga.
I pray to the dust of your lotus feet Srila Prabhupada I that I always get a chance of serving your lotus feet and get the association of other devotees, so that I can do my sadhana properly. I often think of you and try to meditate more and more on your words and instructions regarding each and every matter. Sometimes, I really feel horrified and disgusted when I see that there is so much suffering in this material world; still people are not ready to take up to Krishna Consciousness. Things here are so temporary, yet they are so attractive. Even many devotees, I strongly feel have to correct themselves, but the first need I feel is for me to see my own faults and correct them. The culture and temperament of people is taking a bad shape; people these days have gone morally bankrupt and "morality and conscience" do not exist anymore. Please bless us Srila Prabhupada Ji so that these things change in this material world, and people in this kali-yuga also take back to Vedic culture.
Kindly accept this piece of writing as Vyasa Puja offering from my side and shower your blessings upon this most fallen soul. I just beg for your mercy my guru maharaj and I aspire to be your faithful servant.
Aspiring to be your servant,